A couple weeks ago, I bought new 8 lb hand weights for our home gym. They still have their price stickers on them, and I haven’t touched them since. Right now, I think they’re being used as a door stop.
What began as a good intention is now becoming a guilt laden eyesore. In the weeks prior to buying them, I’d been a bit lethargic about my weight lifting routine, and I thought it was because it was time to move up from 5 lb to 8 lb weights. I was doing way too many reps, and I was getting bored.
That obviously wasn’t the problem.
The problem is that I know that on February 26th, I’m going to have a surgery on my esophagus (correcting a hernia), which will make it so I can’t exercise for at least 6 weeks. I’m having a hard time seeing the point of lifting weights to build up muscle that’s only going to atrophy.
I’m bringing this same attitude to my scripture memorization as well. I know that even though I’m memorizing the book of James now, it’s going to go the way of Psalm 23 and the various other Psalms I’ve memorized in my lifetime. It’s all just going to atrophy. Part of me wonders, “What’s the point, if it’s all just going to go away?”
So, I took this Eeyore like attitude to my husband, and he told me that I should keep up the exercising to be as fit as possible for my surgery. I want to be as healthy as I can be to have the best chances of healing quickly.
I hadn’t thought of it that way (Sometimes, it’s annoying having a doctor in the house).
I suppose that the same goes for my scripture memorization. I should do my best to make my heart as spiritually healthy as I can, to survive the ins and outs of life, especially because I’ll probably need those verses to get me through some tough times ahead…even if they’re only there in fragments.
So, I’m going to exercise and memorize verses until I have my surgery. I’m going to lose a lot of muscle tone during the six weeks, and my running mileage is going to be shot when I start over. I might even forget some of the verses I learned just prior to the surgery (maybe I’ll blame the anesthesia). But, this strength is for the surgery, too.
Please keep me in your prayers on Tuesday morning during my surgery. I’m going to be taking some time off from writing while I recover, but I’ll be back as soon as I can to let you know how I’m doing.